It’s crazy to still be thinking “What if…” After so many years. After talking with someone who had such an impact on my past I’m sitting here wondering, what if I had known then what I know now? What if I hadn’t reacted the way that I did? What if…
All there is to do now, 5 years later… Is focus on, what now?
After hardly talking to him all day, he calls me and we end up fighting for half an hour. Definitely not the way I wanted that call to go. I’m proud to have such a hard working man in my life who loves me and wants to be with me. But how can we nurture a relationship through scattered texts throughout the day and a maybe a five minute conversation?
We knew it would be hard, and we knew it would be hard for a while. But I really didn’t think 3 days and an hour drive would be quite this rough on my heart.
Love conquers all… Right?
- Nicholas Sparks (via kari-shma)
I will never understand why some people try to purposefully hurt someone else… Does it really help make them feel better about themselves? Someone please enlighten me.
All his words have really done is make me stronger and try harder to keep pushing for what I want so that I can continue to know that he is only attempting to cause me pain that I cannot truly feel because I know what he says is far from the truth…
I am going to keep it that way. Because I am better than degrading others for my benefit, I see more benefit in brushing the cat.
Better yourself and stop worrying about me, bro. I’m just fine :)
I’m starting to think that we were fooled as children into believe in a “happily ever after”. The older I’ve gotten (yes, I realize I’m only just around the corner from 22) the less and less I believe in that silly saying. Everyday takes a lot of work in a relationship. Any relationship for that matter, and yes some take less than others but it all consists of work and love every single day. It isn’t always easy and sometimes it just plain sucks, but why isn’t anyone ever told this as a child? We grow up with these preconceived notions in our heads that everything always works out with little effort and a lot of glamour. I want my white wedding, and I want someone “to have and to hold”. But at what costs am I willing to get these things? Is there a limit on how long you’re supposed to be willing to wait for someone to sweep you off your feet? What if it just isn’t working out with someone but you’re too afraid to cut ties because in all honesty, who really wants to be alone? All I’m looking for is consistency and love. Pure, true, sometimes sappy, deep love.
I wonder, what does “happily ever after” even mean?
It’s been over 6 months or something crazy like that since I’ve been on this bad boy… But I missed it so I’m back to blogging :) I don’t even know if anyone reads anything I post but I am still coming back with a whole lot to say and a lot of pictures to share, xo
There’s nothing more beautiful than a girl who is willing to show who she really is. A girl who isn’t afraid to brave the world just as she is- without anything masking her personality or her beauty. It just isn’t right when you see an already pretty girl caking on the makeup and transforming herself into a completely different looking person. I don’t think its supposed to be used as a mask, but rather as an enhancer to the natural beauty each girl possesses.
I wish more girls would be confident in the beauty that they have… and not let anyone ever tell them that they need to wear more makeup to look good.
Makeup should never be a necessity, but rather more of an accessory.